Finally it’s over. After about six weeks I can say that not only this project is finished but school is almost done. I’ve learned that I have to be less scared and fearful of failure in my life, in order for my creativity to flourish. I have to embrace those moments of failure and learn from them along the way. I will aim to become more creative. I plan to start reading and writing a lot more in the summer, as well as keeping up a drawing journal that I started a while ago. I hope that anyone who reads this blog tries their best to put their greatest creativity forward in everything they do. Thank you and goodnight.
“He didn’t know which door or wall or opening in the house to jump at, to get through, because one was an opening that wasn’t a door it was a void, or kid and the other was a wall that wasn’t an opening…”
This is a quote from a short story I read called The Door. This story reminded me a lot about my own life. I think by doors the author means life decisions, and there are so many different ways to go in life, but one of them is going to be a dead end. Ultimately there’s only one path that you’re going to take and that is the right one. The other paths you may go down and realize that you have to turn around or branch off. The author also talked about rats being tested with these doors. I took rat testing and thought of mazes. In mazes, there is typically one way out and one way in. There are many paths that might take you to the end, but there is only one end, and hopefully yours has a good ending.
If I want to write a poem it has to be handwritten,
If I want to write a poem it has to be creative,
No it doesn’t,
Yes it does,
What’s a poem?
This is a poem,
No it’s not,
Yes it is,
This is random,
No it’s not,
Yes it is,
NO THIS IS A POEM!
So I’ve been doing a bit of thinking on this project and my subject of the fear of creativity, and I’ve come up with a term: “Negative Creativity”. I define negative creativity as the absence of creativity or loss of it. Society has come to criticize creativity much too often. The only places where creativity are openly acceptable are in the Arts: Theatre, Music, or Physical Art, etc. However, this brings on thoughts of negative creativity. Is it okay if I ask this question? Is it okay if I present this project in an interpretive dance? Of course it is, but children and adults alike are used to a set way of doing things, and straying from the “right way” is thought of as being harmful to ones progress.
Personally I want the negative creativity in my life to go away. Creativity is a great and wondrous thing, as long as it is used in the right ways. I tend to think within the little details of everything, so I want to start to take time away from thinking and give time to create pure creativity.
So I watched this movie today. It’s not really all that appropriate for school, but that’s okay because we’re all mature here. The movie is called Rubber. It’s about Robert the tire, and he goes around blowing peoples heads off. It’s really quite a random and disturbing idea at the same time, but for some reason this movie really caught my eye. It probably has one of my favorite monologues on a movie ever. It goes a little something like this:
“In the Steven Spielberg movie E.T., why is the alien brown? No reason. In Love Story, why do the two characters fall madly in love with each other? No reason. In Oliver Stone’s JFK, why is the President suddenly assassinated by some stranger? No reason. In the excellent Chain Saw Massacre by Tobe Hooper, why don’t we ever see the characters go to the bathroom or wash their hands like people do in real life? Absolutely no reason. Worse, in The Pianist by Polanski, how come this guy has to hide and live like a bum when he plays the piano so well? Once again the answer is, no reason. I could go on for hours with more examples. The list is endless. You probably never gave it a thought, but all great films, without exception, contain an important element of no reason. And you know why? Because life itself is filled with no reason. Why can’t we see the air all around us? No reason. Why are we always thinking? No reason. Why do some people love sausages and other people hate sausages? No fucking reason.”
So… Yeah, this whole movie is kind of made for no apparent reason. And why not? If you have a vision, make it come alive. I see no reason to criticize creativity. It’s beautiful, to be able to create something and honestly love your own work. This is one of the most important things to me.
But he is so right when he says that life is full of “No Reason”. Why do you get up in the morning? No reason. Why do you say the things you say? No Reason. The reason to life is being random and creative and yourself.
I feel like I’ve become more creative by even starting this blog. It may seem weird, but I like how random life is and just how myself I can be.
I love this drawing. I think this drawing is utterly creative and random and I love it. To me, it doesn’t need to “be anything” it just is. It’s the interpretation of the beholder and that creates even more creative ideas. I interpret this drawing as many roads out of one source. In other words, there are many roads for me to take in my life, and any of them are a viable option. My success is only limited by my creativity.
I have come to think that fear is a somewhat unnecessary quality to have. Fear is ultimately what holds me back in life. I’m afraid to ask something, I’m afraid to speak up, I’m afraid to be around strangers. My life is full of fear. Actually, correction: I think fear is necessary to overcome. If there is fear in your life then it’s only holding you back. Fear is necessary, but if you want to get anywhere in life you need to fight past that fear and overcome it. I fear that I wont be good enough. I fear that my ideas wont have the quality behind them that I want them to. I fear I’m not a creative person. Fear holds back our creative insights.
I love to sing, so it was weird when the other day I was fearful to sing because I was scared I’d mess it up in some way. I’m scared that I’m not going to find out what this world has in store for me. I’m scared that time is running out for me. I’m scared that I’m not living up to my potential, but then again who is these days… I would like to know the answer to all of these questions and fears, but at the same time I like the uncertainty that life throws at me. That is definitely the only way to be truly creative; to live life with uncertainty and to adapt to how life moves you.
I’m frustrated. I’m scared. I’m excited. I’m learning to let go of my fears and jump into the life god gave me.
I would consider Brene Brown an expert on topics like vulnerability and overall human connection. She explores how humans feel vulnerability and fear and how that affects our lives. She says that vulnerability is a good thing. To feel vulnerable is a great thing and to overcome that is even better. To overcome the fear that is holding one back is the greatest thing that a person can do. Feeling vulnerable allows you to learn from that feeling and achieve what you’ve always wanted to in life, to overcome your fear. I greatly believe that fear is determined by ones vulnerability. You fear what you don’t know, but embrace the “What if” moments. Embrace the feeling you get when you dont know what is going to happen next. It’s like your life is one big surprise and you’re just waiting for it to happen. In other words, unleash the inner you and leave the worrying at home.
Creativity is the basis for all human growth and existence. The act of being creative is characterized by originality and expressiveness, or once described as having imaginative qualities. “Creativity is really a catch-all term for a variety of very different kinds of thinking” (Lehrer). Many have thought that creativity has been lost greatly in the recent years; this is mainly caused by education strictly reducing creativity in children. Is it the fear of failure that works against the creative mind? Do teachers tend to fill their students with fear by setting specific guidelines for daily work? Creativity is all around us; it’s in the five year old girl at the park all the way to the sixty five year old grandpa that can’t stop playing chess. They have overcome the fear and aren’t ashamed to fail.
I wish to research how the fear of failure greatly affects creativity and the people that fear touches. “The only way to change your reaction to failure is to challenge the beliefs that create it–those ideas about what failure means” (Tiny Buddha). Failure is something we make up to put ourselves down. I want to know how to change the fear of failure in everyone and expand creativity everywhere. How would one overcome the fear of failure? Does it take creativity to improve our world, or is it fear that drives us? Finally I want to know how fear works to compress creativity in children and in our society in general.
James C. Kaufman and Kyung Hee Kim are both well known researchers on creativity. They were sent pictures like this one above and were asked to evaluate the creativity by using The Torrance Test of Creative Thinking. Both Adults and Children were asked to take five minutes of their time to draw whatever came to their mind. Some of the surveyed were given great creative scores while others fell a bit short when it came to original, creative ideas. The people who scored the highest had the will and fought through the fear of failing in order to unleash their inner creativity. Nowadays creativity solves problems and answers questions in many different ways. There was no true, definite answer to finishing the drawings that were given to these contestants. They used their creative spark to solve what was in front of them. Activities like this are an essential way to determine creativity as well as continue creative growth in our society. We can’t make the population be fearful of being creative. Creativity is what makes the world grow as a whole: developing new products, coming up with solutions to diseases, and understanding how the mind develops new ideas.